Happy Early Christmas!

Have a happy new year!

I love you for you.

Darnell.

Gotta be fair.

I think it's fair that he names the baby if it is a boy.
If it's a girl then the choice is mine.
Boy: Santana Edward Leonard
Girl: Madisyn Jade Leonard
I'm only 17 Weeks so these names may change:)
Dec. 29 = Special Day!

Done. ( Last blog for a while )

It's like this, you either except me or you don't.
Tired of trying to find out if you really love me anymore.
If you don't then whatever, keep chasing your silly hoes
that don't give a shit about you. It's funny how you could
be supportive to someone for the longest and when you need
them the most they turn their back on you for someone the like or wanna fuck and move on to the next. You'll never see what I'm talkin'about until it happens to you.

Love the chorus Charles.

Spend my days
Spend my nights
Spend my time
Thinkin' of you
In my face
In my lies
In my mind
Do you think of me to?
- Charles Hamilton

I friggin' love her words yo!

Did you know I kept all of your pictures, don't have
the strength to sort through yet. Tried to erase
the way your kisses taste. But some things a girl
could never forget..

Don't you know I've tried and I've tried to get you
out my mind but it don't get no better as each day goes
by and I'm lost and confused I've got nothing to lose.
Hope to hear from you soon P.S. I'm still not over you.
- Robyn Fenty (Rihanna)

Back Again. (Sorry)

Hello. Hello. Hello and I will welcome myself back to this blog world.
I am okay and I am the happiest I've ever been in life. I'm getting ish done in school and making plans for my new baby and graduation. Lots of ignorant ppl say that I will not make it, proving them wrong will devestate them though.(FUCK YALL!) Knowing now that my life will be changing in a matter of months I have already selected my five main colleges that I would like to attend. I have to do what's best for me and my baby. Having no support at the moment is a little stressful but has not made me consider getting a fucking ABORTION. Being young does not mean you cannot be a good mother so fuck everyone who says that shit. I WILL NOT give my baby up because of someone's opinion. Fuck that!

Ha!

So I lied about goin to the game I ended up goin to Topeka with my family.
I'm sad that Darnell didn't win but it's okay I will live wont I?
Lately I haven't been feeling well but I think nothing serious. Having no appetite sucks ass in a million ways. Today wasn't so bad at school since I really didn't have much to do in any of my classes. (So what I fuk'n slept). That concludes this blog.
Until Nextime.

Total Wakkster ( Real Shit)

Ayo man this homecoming shit is getting out of hand.
Tired of everybody bribing and hating on one another.
I mean if you fly, you fly. If you the shit, then you the shit.
But I MUST say don't get cocky cause you got a BIG applause,
because last year nigguh I remember yo ass being beyond dusty
nigguh yo gear was a disgrace. I am glad to see that you TRIED
to UPGRADE to some more 'ol fake shit but you could do better. You cannot be
cocky wearing OFF BRAND shit! Fuck all yo shit talking behind a
nigguh's back stop being a BITCH! And find a new style because ya trying
to hard to take his. Not happening! He's way flyer than you! Make some money!

FUCK ALL YOU JEALOUS HATIN' ASS FUCKS, EAT A DICK!

MONEY ON MY MIND.............
I bet you wish ya momma could hand you bread (Chuckles)
Friday I will be at the game supporting you know who.
Saturday Uncertain?? Dance? Maybe if I find the right fit.

........&&&&& I'm out (BEEYITCH)

Don't be a Dick.

Yo man I am so sick of ignorant people
period,especially this one particular
person. You can be so respectful to someone
and they always seem to be a DICK to you.
Why can't I ask you something with out you
getting mad? What is with you? Why do you act
like this? And you always say if you had money
we would always be happy. Yeah right that shits
a fuckin' fantasy. This is real life. Done
dealing with the dumb shit.. So whatever leave
me alone for awhile please and thank ya.
Accomplish everything you need and leave me out
of ya life. I'm tired of wasting my fucking breath
over this shit.]]]]]]]
-And I'm out Bitch!

]]Untitled.

Today has gone quite well I can actually say.
I got my math class changed (YEEEESSSSS!)
My phone is off (Oh Noooooo) but it's okay though
I would like to experience myself without one for
a second (maybe a few weeks).
Life is good =) &&&&&&

FOR THE EFF'N RECORD;;

Me and Darnell are still together! (Yeah the
one who cheated on me with you know who. Damn I'm so stupid)
His birthday is coming up and I
really want to do something special
for him. How do you break your neck to do something for someone when they hold so many secrets? I dunno I guess I shouldn't
discuss this over blogger ey?
Other than that I will be quitting Drink
A Latte' if I do not get any hours this week
this is FINAL! What's the whole
point of being employed when you get no hours.
Hey, I understand you gotta train but life has
it's peak points (Rising Action). It's cool though. No hard feelings,
I'm just very disappointed in they way I have been treated.
Life goes on..........


Hopefully this week I can accomplish lots
of priorities and make ends meet.
Til then.
I'm out.

Work or School?

Yesterday I came into work and received nothing
but complaints. Why? I dunno did my boss have a
bad weekend? No sex? No business? Whatever it
was I honestly don't care. This guy made me
seem like I had no enthusiasm or happiness in
my life. He described me as if I were dull.
I go to work just about everyday of the week
working my ass of from the time I get
there until close. I'm not a lazy person, hell
I can't even let my house get dirty. That shit bothers
me yo. Real shit. I am polite I believe that I am
a respectful individual on the clock. I make good tips
doesn't that tell YOU anything? Never have I ever been
rude to any of my customers. Oh and how good of
a family member are you when you talk shit on
your own NEPHEW (Airon) to me and totally change up the
story when he arrives. Going broke? Realize that hiring
so many fucking new people will empty your pockets? You are
pathetic! It's crazy how your own nephew tells me all about you.
You never got any complaints, Ya know why? We're not busy enough!Do I have
to get my family ( BIG ASS UNCLES) involved? It's seems to me as that
you shut the fuck up when Airon's dad be on that ass! Don't take advantage of
me because you know my situation. Just because I live alone without my parents doesn't
mean that you can TRY to screw me over (BIG WES 6'2, Uncle Rock just came from the Pen 15 YEARS NIGGUH) Don't FUCK with me that's all I'm saying.
How hard is it to make coffee? I hate LIARS and you are a BIG one
don't take your terrible life out on me! Go punch a bag or something!

GO CHECK YOUR FUCKING REVIEWS MR. I'M GETTING COMPLAINTS!

Never Look Back.

This is so crazy.
I don't know what to say.
I've been broken up with and I guess I can accept.
We both have lied to each other.
We both haven't cheated on each other.
Listening is a big deal in a relationship and I
think you had trouble with doing so.
You always got to say whatever from
Bitch this, Whore that, Dumb this or whatever.
And I let you disrespect me. I thought you
were just stressed and it would go away but
it didn't and it continued until the night you left me.
Despite this, I don't hate you.

My Advice To You My Friend;;;;

It feels so good to be a teacher's aide.
I just love the whole part of not having to
do shit. It relaxes my mind ya know? It gives
me time to clear my head a plan how to
take care if my priorities. Not wanting to fall off
subject but I seen someone at school today looking so
depressed it made me feel horrible, it kinda
ruined my whole mood for a while. Girl,
never accept being a sideline girl( Being the back burner)
in a relationship, it's just not worth it.
I know you love 'em but if he ain't right
you gotta let 'em go. Trust.
-ayodisbrie.

Starting Fresh.

I just recently deleted my old blogs.
This year will be much more interesting
I PROMISE you that!

Thee latest.

I know it's been a while since I've blogged due to me having a job
and dealing with my own issues.
This summer:
- I moved into my own apt ( June 2nd)
- I got a job ( Unified Gov't, Drink A Latte')
- Did lots of community service
- Purchased a personal journal that I mention everything in
- Got my cell number changed alot
- Got back cool with my Mah
- Took care of my personal issues
- Dealt with lots of money
- Met new ppl
- Met many Police/Sheriff's doing payroll
- Join a fitness center
- Walked five miles
-Kept my word
Currently in newspaper class not doing a damn thing
but just figuring out how Imma interview this new
principal on the third floor. I met her her name is Mrs. Eagans
she cool, seems down to earth but we'll see how long that lasts
it's only the third week.
...... N tee ways..
Today I came across a problem with one of my teachers
I dunno if she just wants to be a BITCH or if she just
wants me to succeed. I just feel like she put a horrible amount
of pressure on me not realizing that I already have enough on my plate.
I took a test and got every question right but I missed a page that I didn't see
so I barely passed and she wouldn't let me fix it.
That's Bullshit!
Karma's a Bitch I know you want a Master's or Whatever!
Lemme stop because I can keep going on and on on how I feel about her.
This weekend was incredible I went to Topeka Friday night and came back Sunday.
I hung out with my 35 year old Aunt and some friends. We had a Awsome Walmart experience.
I dunno why but going to a grocery store super late is always fun.
Oh by the way, the person who has my phone needs to give it back!

She's back!

I'm so excited it's been so long since
I've blogged about anything. When was my
last time blogging like June? Well I dunno.
Just to let all you Bloggers know I'm back
and expect a lot more from me this year.
It's friday I gotta keep it short. I'm out.