Thoughts in my mind pt.2 (The sequel)

Knowing that I can have you anytime I want turns me on, but I'll never be 2nd place sweetie. I love you but it's not that deep. If I wait for you, I'll be waiting forever and that's not what I want. I deserve a man not a boy. He'll make up for what you never did. This will be my last blog about my past relationship, ready for new beginnings.

Same shit, different day.

Everything in my life has totally crumbled. I can't even say because it's just so fckn bad. What I thought we had was totally different in your mind. You've hurt me more than you could have ever hurt me. I guess it really is my time to move on with my life. Never could imagine life without you. I guess it starts here...

Tomorrow is the Day!

I eff'n graduate tomorrow bitches! It's finally fuk'n over!
Hells Yeah!
Shout Out to the class of 2010.

He's Finally Here!

Darnell Ashton Leonard
Born: May 5, 2010
7 Pounds 9 Ounces (20.6 inches)
I love you little D!

Prom Night

I can actually say prom was FUN. It was such a positive vibe all over. No haters, no bullshit, non of that at all. I'm proud of my class. Took some nice pictures you know me. I danced all night lookin' big as hell but I had to make this a memorable moment. I will never forget that night.
1 thing I must say:
Mexicans need to stick to they salsa shit cause yall looked like some damn fools. [lol]
Tryna slow dance to Wacka Flack Flame and shit, WTF was that?

Why???

Violence is not the way to solve all issues especially to a pregnant girl.
What were you thinking? I don't care how mad I made you was it that serious that you had to put your hands on me? Believe it or not I'm filing a police report on you and that's not a good look for you. The law takes that seriously just so you know. You got lucky today. I called them but for some reason they didn't come out to my house. I will be making a trip to the police station tomorrow. You are wrong and I hope you realize what you did was uncalled for.

Thoughts in my Mind pt.1

Leaving you was probably the best thing I could ever do for myself. Our relationship consisted of drama and it wasn't me it was you. I don't know how many times I have tried to save us but I just could not keep holding on. You kept the biggest lie going for over a year now. I should have been left you but I didn't because I believed in giving you chances because I loved you so much. When you told me the shit that happened between you and her last weekend it was like my heart stopped. I didn't wanna believe it. How could someone who tells you they love you hurt you so badly? I'm still trying to figure out why? What did I do to make you do this to me? I guess we'll never know because you claim you don't
- Whatever.

Over It.

Why is it that every time I try to accept your mistakes and work things out with you I always find out more secrets that you have kept from me? Why is it when a guy gets a good girl they always do everything to screw the relationship up? Someone drop a piano on my head please because I can't seem to find out why YOU continue to do such betraying things. Don't  YOU think YOU'VE done enough to me already? I want to just let everything out right this minute but I don't feel I should do so. I mean why should I? Only to get a fake ass apology and to continue to watch you CHEAT or attempt to. I have given YOU chance after chance after chance and YOU still haven't learned yet. FED UP is not even close enough to describe what I am right now. YOU need time to find yourself. I'm not standing by YOU anymore. I refuse to keep dealing with someone so heartless. It's like a few months after I started going with YOU YOU just stopped caring. I don't want this anymore.

This is my Shit!

He ain't no square, he just like to share
In love with the tipper throwing hundreds in the air
Throw some over here
And Louis, drop the Louis, put the Louis in my lap.

Random ISH;

I'm currently filling out all financial information so I can go to college (Yay me right?) I'm really excited. I've always dreamed of being a social worker/ person who works in human resources. I'm just thankful for everything and everybody who has helped me get this far in life. Thank You. Oh yeah and I would like to shout out to every who said I wouldn't make it this far. Thanks BITCHES!
And Last.......


UPCOMING IMPORTANT DAYS OF MY LIFE:
April 26- Last sonogram before I give birth
May 1- Senior Prom
May 12- Darnell Edward Leonard Jr.
May 20- Graduation

On a terrible Friday...

Ugh man. This sucks. It's Friday and I have no plans what so ever. Boyfriend works all weekend, I'm not going to Topeka, and most of all, THERE AIN'T SHIT CRACKIN' AND YES I SAID CRACKIN' IN KAN CITY as hood nigguh's and bitches say. I refuse to hang out with one of my friends just because her weekend plans fuck'n suck ass ALWAYS and he way of having fun is plain BULLSHIT. AHHHHHHHHH! I feel like pulling my hair out and screaming to the top of my lungs. Next weekend WILL be the shit I swear fuck everyone else it WILL definitely be all about me and my son of course. My advice to anyone who reads this fuck'n blog is have your plans together or end up miserable like me. Subway here I come.
- Peace.

Finally... Yes! [Oh yeah, Happy Fool's Day]

And now it's time to brag that I only have to come to school two blocks a day [2 Blocks= 2 classes] This is a miracle I am so glad that I officially do not have to get up at 5 a.m. anymore. Thank God. I don't know what I'm gonna do with all of this free time. Dammit! Why couldn't it have been this way all year?
 Maybe I could.....
1. Soak in the bathtub for hours
2. Cook/Clean
3. Shopping
4. Apply for more scholarships
5. Sleep
6. Paint my toenails over and over again
7. Watch Barbershop [lol]
8. Exercise
9. Talk on the phone with my mom for hours
10. IDK What else

Happy Anniversary Mom if you were still married.
Damn.
lol.

Probably the only MONDAY I will ever enjoy.

Fuck how long the title is..

So it's Monday and I can actually say that I am well rested. Who comes to school well rested on a Monday? [Me, duh bitch] lmfao. You tired motherfuck[ers] need to go to sleep at night!
[-N-T-Who?]
Tomorrow is a important day. I have to attend this mock interview thing that's worth like 300 points in my Economics class. [300 points, WTF?!] Yeah I said it 300 points. Gotta be there because Ms. Carlson clearly stated that I would NOT pass the class if I did not attend. OMG! I am so nervous because mine is scheduled at like eight in the morning and that's the time I get up everyday normally. How the fuck will I pull this off?  Not to mention I do skip my teacher's aide class everyday. What? I don't need it to graduate so what they hey. I guess this means I have to look really nice and wear make up but not too much. [Ugh] 8 months pregnant but I still got it though lol. Trying to think of what I could possibly wear. Hmmm... I've grown out of all of my dressy clothes. Guess I'm gonna have to go buy a nice skirt and top. But where from? I'll figure something out. [I always do]

-I'm NSYNC gone. Huah!

I'm impressed.

I'm sitting here listening to Omarion's latest Ollusion album, this shit is ill.
I'm not even an Omarion fan but I probably will be after today lol.
He has improved alot. Good Job 'O'
&& I'm outtie!

For the Groupie.

For the past several weeks I have been dealing with a lot of bullshit. Before I get into that lets see, I'm almost eight months pregnant, I am still employed, I'm currently doing okay in school, [Could be much better], and oh yeah I received a certificate of completion for this big Economics project is Ms. Carlson's class. [Yay Me]

On the Behalf of Bullshit...

Uhm yeah I'm really getting sick of this groupie running back and forth from her boyfriend to my mine. Seriously you need to cut it out. Obviously he doesn't want you because he's dissed you to the eff'n extreme. When will you back up is my question. Being a groupie is not a nice look just incase you haven't figured it out yet. It's like one day your happy with your relationship and soon as you have a problem you run to mine. Who the fuck do you think you are?


Like have you never been loved or something? Are you that eff'n desperate? You are a home wrecker and I noticed that since the day I met you. You ain't nothin' but a fifteen year old girl who needs some attention. Call me crazy but who's not gonna get mad at someone who is constantly trying to take their boyfriend/girlfriend from them?


WORDS TO DESCRIBE YOU:
BITCH
HOE 
SLUT 
TRAMP
DESPERATE
GROUPIE
GOAL POST
GAP
INCH WIDE
LAMA FACE
FUCKED CHUCK WEARING
FLOODIN' PANT WEARIN ASS
BROAD

I CANT WAIT....

I can't wait for the day when you are in a deep relationship and another girl comes and wrecks your shit. I can't wait for you to feel the pain that I felt. I cannot wait for the day that you cry yourself to sleep feeling so stupid. KARMA IS A BITCH AND WHEN IT HITS YOU, I HOPE IT HIT'S HARD.


Just to let you know;
When there is love with two people who have been together for two years it's hard for it to END.
Did you think he was gonna leave me for you?
Pssshhh.. Syke.
Sweetie, he loves me.
He'll never leave.
Face it, your are a SIDELINE HO.
- Who will never find love.
& I'm outtttt.

Payday Friday:)

It's payday bitches!
I am so glad! Having little bits and piece of money make me feel poor as fuck!
[Yeah Right] I'm fuk'n Aubrie I'm never broke.
If dumb ass fucker's would stop spendin' on stupid shit then they would shine like me lmao!
Shit I'm pregnant and still fly. I feel very different than the others.
I just don't see my self dressin like others. Nice hoodie, skinny jeans,
and some fly kicks is all I need. Cheea!
Let's not get too cocky right?
Any whoo; My son will be here in 3 more months
can't wait to see 'em. He's mah baby.
I'm so happy. Maybe I can buy him a fly fit for when he come home:)