Why???

Violence is not the way to solve all issues especially to a pregnant girl.
What were you thinking? I don't care how mad I made you was it that serious that you had to put your hands on me? Believe it or not I'm filing a police report on you and that's not a good look for you. The law takes that seriously just so you know. You got lucky today. I called them but for some reason they didn't come out to my house. I will be making a trip to the police station tomorrow. You are wrong and I hope you realize what you did was uncalled for.

Thoughts in my Mind pt.1

Leaving you was probably the best thing I could ever do for myself. Our relationship consisted of drama and it wasn't me it was you. I don't know how many times I have tried to save us but I just could not keep holding on. You kept the biggest lie going for over a year now. I should have been left you but I didn't because I believed in giving you chances because I loved you so much. When you told me the shit that happened between you and her last weekend it was like my heart stopped. I didn't wanna believe it. How could someone who tells you they love you hurt you so badly? I'm still trying to figure out why? What did I do to make you do this to me? I guess we'll never know because you claim you don't
- Whatever.

Over It.

Why is it that every time I try to accept your mistakes and work things out with you I always find out more secrets that you have kept from me? Why is it when a guy gets a good girl they always do everything to screw the relationship up? Someone drop a piano on my head please because I can't seem to find out why YOU continue to do such betraying things. Don't  YOU think YOU'VE done enough to me already? I want to just let everything out right this minute but I don't feel I should do so. I mean why should I? Only to get a fake ass apology and to continue to watch you CHEAT or attempt to. I have given YOU chance after chance after chance and YOU still haven't learned yet. FED UP is not even close enough to describe what I am right now. YOU need time to find yourself. I'm not standing by YOU anymore. I refuse to keep dealing with someone so heartless. It's like a few months after I started going with YOU YOU just stopped caring. I don't want this anymore.

This is my Shit!

He ain't no square, he just like to share
In love with the tipper throwing hundreds in the air
Throw some over here
And Louis, drop the Louis, put the Louis in my lap.

Random ISH;

I'm currently filling out all financial information so I can go to college (Yay me right?) I'm really excited. I've always dreamed of being a social worker/ person who works in human resources. I'm just thankful for everything and everybody who has helped me get this far in life. Thank You. Oh yeah and I would like to shout out to every who said I wouldn't make it this far. Thanks BITCHES!
And Last.......


UPCOMING IMPORTANT DAYS OF MY LIFE:
April 26- Last sonogram before I give birth
May 1- Senior Prom
May 12- Darnell Edward Leonard Jr.
May 20- Graduation

On a terrible Friday...

Ugh man. This sucks. It's Friday and I have no plans what so ever. Boyfriend works all weekend, I'm not going to Topeka, and most of all, THERE AIN'T SHIT CRACKIN' AND YES I SAID CRACKIN' IN KAN CITY as hood nigguh's and bitches say. I refuse to hang out with one of my friends just because her weekend plans fuck'n suck ass ALWAYS and he way of having fun is plain BULLSHIT. AHHHHHHHHH! I feel like pulling my hair out and screaming to the top of my lungs. Next weekend WILL be the shit I swear fuck everyone else it WILL definitely be all about me and my son of course. My advice to anyone who reads this fuck'n blog is have your plans together or end up miserable like me. Subway here I come.
- Peace.

Finally... Yes! [Oh yeah, Happy Fool's Day]

And now it's time to brag that I only have to come to school two blocks a day [2 Blocks= 2 classes] This is a miracle I am so glad that I officially do not have to get up at 5 a.m. anymore. Thank God. I don't know what I'm gonna do with all of this free time. Dammit! Why couldn't it have been this way all year?
 Maybe I could.....
1. Soak in the bathtub for hours
2. Cook/Clean
3. Shopping
4. Apply for more scholarships
5. Sleep
6. Paint my toenails over and over again
7. Watch Barbershop [lol]
8. Exercise
9. Talk on the phone with my mom for hours
10. IDK What else

Happy Anniversary Mom if you were still married.
Damn.
lol.